Tuesday, August 10, 2010

An old fashion love story

Have you ever had a broken heart?
You can't answer yes, if you've never been in love. This is a story about love. Not romance, passion, infatuation or lust. Just love. There's this girl. It seems I have known her forever. We were introduced in the 5th grade. We were pals all through grade school and into high school. But then we drifted apart. We would bump into one another. But only in passing. She would tell me all of the things that were bothering her. And I would listen but she never let me help. Her parents didn't like me. No! That's being mild. They hated me. They never took the time to learn anything about the real me. And they would fill her head with non-sense every time she mentioned my name.

When she went away to college, we lost touch. But I would run into her occasionally. Spring break, Christmas,, New Years. But when graduation time arrived, I was specifically told to stay away. It wasn't her decision. But the school didn't want my type present. MY TYPE. Can you imagine someone not wanting me around? So as per the request, I stayed my distance. She went on, to be a very successful marine biologist. Many of my friends are intelligent, skilled, capable people. But for some reason every time I would visit this friend, her collegues, would give her a hard time about me being around. 

Finally we lost touch for many years. I never stopped thinking of her. I was in love. Madly, totally, head over heels in love. Nothing would ever change that. There was something special about this woman. It was our destiny. To spend eternity together. She just didn't know it, Yet. 

But how do you make some one love you? 

You can't. See, God gave all of us free will. All I could do was to try to show her how much I loved her. And then she would come around. Our mutual friends would tell her how much I loved her. But she would scoff, that no one could love her that much. Was this girl stupid? How could she not see that I would do anything for her? I would throw myself in front of a bus for this girl.

Then one night she called me. I was surprised. But very pleased. She asked me to meet her in one hour, at a downtown cafe. I arrived early. Grabbed a table near the door, and waited. Anticipation made the time drag. It seemed like days. But it had only been hours. Two hours. After another hour she was still a no show. And I had very important things to do. So I left.

Two weeks later she called again. I asked why we failed to meet the last time, and she told me her friend got sick and needed her. I started to tell her that I could have helped in that situation. But she interrupted and asked me to meet her at "BENNEY'S" a local biker hang out. 

I knew the place. But I had no idea that she would be caught dead in there. Well, yes I really did. Because she always had a little rebel in her. And was attracted to the bad boys. So I mounted up on wings and headed for BENNEY'S. I may look like I belong with those guys. But we really have very little in common. Well, most of them either know me or know of me. But they stay clear of me. I have a reputation that most of these pseudo tough guys want nothing to do with.

This time she's a no show again. But I managed to meet some new friends, so this night was not a total waste. This situation repeats itself for months on end. She calls and says she needs to talk. I show up. And she doesn't. Dozens and dozens of calls and an equal number of broken dates. How many more times must this situation play itself out? How many more times will I fall for this ploy? Just as many times as it takes. You see, She's on the list. And I have all the time in the universe. Unfortunately she does not. But even if her last date with me is on her dying breath. I'll be there for her. She's on the list.

Are you on His list? Stop breaking dates. And stop breaking His heart.


SusanD said...

This is great! I love it. By His grace, I've moved from the list to the book. Thanks for sharing. Blessings, SusanD

Alice in Wonderland said...

Such a moving story! I loved this.
I really hope that things work out for her and that she will eventually meet up with you again after all these years.

Heff said...

Free will has its down sides, huh, lol !

red.neck chic said...

Kurt - I love this... Thank You!!!


Anonymous said...

You rock.

Karen said...

Some relationships aren't meant to be... and when you try to force them, it has very little chance of working. It should never be a game.. and if it's right, it comes naturally. Doesn't matter what's in the way. I think that's true of relationships and Faith.


Wow! How romantic are you? And how stupid is she?

I can't imagine anyone not wanting you around, Kurt. :)

I was in love like that with only one person,really. But I felt the need to hide it for the sake of our friendship. That went on for 8 years. The sad thing is I think he was doing the exact same thing!

It's awkward when you're in love with a valued friend.

Marnie said...

What a moving story. I'm glad we have free will, but I certianly hope you get that meeting :0)

Anonymous said...

Very beautiful story...

Spiky Zora Jones said...

That was a beautiful story. Yes, you do love her deeply. But it's time to slightly twist the arms of the fates. I can do that for you. :) it just take a phone call.

I'm not on anyone's list...and no one wants to date me let alone spend eternity with me.

psssst, I'm high maintenance.

it's a wonderful story sweetie...hope she shows up one day...just once. It might be all it takes for her to stay.

later babe. xx

Anonymous said...

I don't know if I'm on anyone's list...but "he's" on my list...and he broke my heart in the worst way...haven't heard from him a year but not a day goes by I don't think of really sucks...I wish I could go on and date other guys but it's tough because it's like I can never find anyone with the connection me and him had.

I just hope one day I can completely get over him and some days, I just pray God finds me someone that'll complete me....because it still feels something's missing :(

I hope you truly do get to see her again one day!

Wrexie said...

How can you make someone love you? You can't. But you can write their name in pencil. Ink causes tears and destroys the paper. A pencil you can erase... leaving an image free to fade or be traced over again, but never torn.