Monday, April 22, 2013

Just so you know

I just want to celibrate ya ya another day of living

Today, April 22, 2013 marks seven years since I was diagnosed with Acute Myeloid Leukemia . That's a pretty big milestone for me because on that day back in 2006 the doctor informed me that this type of leukemia had a less than 20% survivor rate after five years. Did it damn near killed me? Yes! Did it leave me crippled in a wheelchair? Yes! Did it take away my joy? No not at all! I like to joke that the doctors did everything they could, but I survived anyway…

I visited my oncologist two weeks ago and although my platelet count was a little low it has been low the entire seven years and  it has not fluctuated up or down. All of my other lab results were in the normal range and the doctor told me we could switch to only seeing each other once a year instead of the every six months routine that I have been going through. I'm thankful for so many things not least of which as I'm still able to think clearly and communicate verbally with those around me. People ask me "has just tested your faith?" and I say of course it has but my faith remains unshaken. Like so many things in life people misunderstand what the opposites are. In this instance the opposite of faith is not doubt as most people presume. The opposite of faith is fear. And in all this time (seven years) of pain and doubt and wonder and love I have not had one moment of fear that my God has forsaken me or somehow abandoned me. When I started this blog in July 2009 my intent was to reach out and let other people know that despite how bad you think it is in your life there's always hope, and just because someone told you there was no reason for you to have hope... It is perfectly okay to ignore that.
I never thought four years later I would still be writing this, and yet here I am, still alive and well and just as awesome as I ever was before all of this happened.

I'm quoting the lyrics from a song by Rare Earth... "I just want to celebrate ya ya another day of living"